I wasn’t sure if I should write about him … because he isn’t mine to write about. We broke up almost 3 decades ago after dating and living together for over two years. He was my first love. We met at work. I was the youngest of interns – barely 20-something – and was invited […]
There are only two things … no, three things that will make me froth at the mouth in anger. Being too hot Being hangry Being late for an appointment Today … it wasn’t very hot at all. The car told me it was a mere 20C/67F. So I wasn’t cranky because I was hot. And, […]
Several weeks ago I asked my Oncologist Dr. F to cut my steroid dosage in half. Before receiving chemo, I am pumped up with Pepcid (to inhibit histamine responses in my gut), Benedryl (to prevent allergic reactions) and Dexametheson (a steroid to crush my immune system). The steroids were giving me a bad case of […]
I was driving home from the Cancer Centre last week … stopped at a red light. I looked over to the right and BAM! I was rear-ended by a truck. Thankfully I was stopped far enough back that I didn’t hit the car in front of me, but I was thrown forward a good five […]
It’s all about me right now. I will admit that I have an ego. Without being a narcissist. I have lived thirteen years with one of those and can tell you that is much different than being selfish and self-centred. It was that pride that refused to allow me to give up on the narcissist. […]
As the summer of 2017 starts and schools end … I watch as the children of family and friends graduate and move on to next chapters in their lives. I pause … and wonder what advice would I give to someone so fresh and new to the world? Their (hopefully) whole life ahead of them? […]
Would you tell someone that it’s great their son only lost his arm rather than die in a car accident? Say “Oh my God! That is fucking fantastic that you just have epileptic seizures! Better than brain damage or worse!” No? Then why tell me how to feel about my cancer and my life? Why […]
You’ve heard the story of the professor who demonstrated the Jar of Life to his students? He was lecturing on the concept of time management … and placed a big glass jar on the desk in front of him. Next, he pulled out a box of rocks about the size of tennis balls. He placed […]
I have this reoccurring nightmare that my PICC line will bleed out. The nurses tell me that it can’t happen because there is a valve that prevents the backflow of blood … but what if the line is severed? As in a car accident? May as well slice my neck. The nightmare has me slowly […]
Shakespeare ~ A Midsummer’s Night Dream, Act 3, Scene 2 I am mostly fearless. I meet cancer head on and don’t flinch … which is exactly how I have always approached life. Tomorrow is my third of four chemotherapy infusions with the AC combination of drugs: doxorubicin (Adriamycin), and cyclophosphamide (Cytoxan). Once the AC combo […]